meditation or medication?

When I was about 17 or 18 years old, my mom gave me some Ann Coulter books. When I was the age, being that I grew up in a Republican household, I eagerly wanted to call myself a Republican as well. I couldn't wait to vote! I absolutely believed in Ann Coulter's bashing of Democrats, making the Conservatives to be way better people in America. (Just John McCain right?)
Well anyways, I started questioning my belief in religion, period. Then that started me thinking about "my morals." And then I though, well why the fuck did I vote for that person, or I don't really believe that, but I really know I don't like that...
For instance, yes, I support gun ownership. Duh mofo! Look at where I grew up. I would never take that away from my VERY responsible father, who has had a heartattack. Shooting animals is his release people. And dammit, we like the taste of bambi. But then there is gay marriage. Do whatever the fuck ya want! Get married, shit, maybe theres won't end up in straight fucking people getting divorced all the time right? And then theres abortion...I think it depends on the circumstance, but who am I to go on a shooting rampage at a place where people don't want to have the child anyways? If you don't want the kid, more power to ya! Because quite frankly, I'm really sick of people popping out babies like theres no tomorrow! And then there's the war. See overtime, my brain is starting to really function. I'm out of my parents house now, and even before when I wasn't I always questioned them. Shit! My dad isn't a card carrying republican anymore either! He fucking hates a majority of them anyways, but thats because those dumbshits made his business disappear forever like another fucking enron..
Go dad! He's my true hero! Here he is going fishing and hunting, but did he vote for George Bush? Absolutely not! Maybe he should take Dick and show him how to really shoot a motherfucking rifle.
Well needless to say, I think you get the hint, and no I don't want to vote on the Democrat side either. Fuck em both. They're both the same, no one side to me is better then the other. But getting back to what I was talking about, Ann cunt-face Coulter, yeah I don't like her to say the least.
John Edwards I believed had two children pass away, hello!, that sucks. His wife went through cancer, got rid of it. Edwards wants to run for president a second time. Annie calls him a fag. Sure, ok, you want attention, you got it. And now his wife has cancer again. What the fuck gives you the right to say that word to someone like him? Even use that word at all? You are disgusting and I wish bad bad things on you. I know shes done worse things than this people. Maybe I'll make a list during spring break so you can see how truly fucked up this individual is. Damn my eye is twitching, shes stressing me out.
Fucking eat something you whore! Haha! I know I wouldn't throw a pie on her face, I'd ask her, "Where's your dignity as an America?" Your not an American! Your a piece of shit who just lives here.

I really hope more of my friends would broaden their beliefs and not just settle like what I have done. Open your eyes and maybe vote on something every once and a while. Because if I hear you complain about something, your complaining to the wrong person first of all. And because most of my friends are females..I think we need to carry out our right. And trust me, I ain't no feminist, but I think we really need to get out there and vote, plus it gives me extra credit for school...hehe
But I really want my friends to not be so close-minded and uneducated with issues like this. And I think the reason why they aren't voting is because their parents don't do it, never talked to them about it, and they just don't want to. Well I guess thats your right. But just remember, Ann Coulter is a very mean, bad representation of the Republican party. And I believe that party is truly going to shit not only because of her, but from other dumbshits as well.
PEACE! WORD TO YO MOTHA!

so i finally moved out of my parents house. yay! me and jeremy moved into a one bedroom one bath in murrieta thats freaking awesome. these apartments are super chill! love it! cheap too, non-ghetto-ness!
lets see, just taking three classes. they kinda bore me. cant wait to graduate and get out. not sure what else to say, i think im getting bored of this livejournal thing since i havent written in a while. not sure what to talk about. things are good.
peace out!

24! aaaaaaaaaaaaah! wow, i havent posted on this thing in a super long time. that might be a good thing.
sitting at school, basically doing nothing. ive done as much homework as i can..and i think im pretty much done until i can get my damn books in! i hate mail! i have so much to say, so little time..
nothing really exciting is going on. hopefully i graduate this may and i dont know what to do with my life. i know i just wnat a super fun job that pays decent..i dont really care anymore. gonna move out with jeremy when he gets home. really excited for that. i think he would be the best roommate. haha! well enough of my crappy spelling and on to class. yay...just taking three, glad its only three.
36 more days till he comes home!

1.) Where did you ring in 2006?
i think at jeremys

2.) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
taken

3.) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
yes

4.) How did you earn your keep?
whoring myself to jeremy

5.) Did you have to go to the hospital?
No....does getting birth control pills count?

6.) Did you encounter the police?
oh shit. at work..they are our regulars..those popo are so fat..

7.) Where did you go on vacation?
jen, you are copying me, vegas!

8.) What did you purchase that was over $500?
nothing! (my hawaii trip)

9.) Did you know anybody who got married?
someone at work

10.) Do you know anybody who passed away?
saddam hussein! and gerald ford too!

11.) Have you run into anybody you graduated high school with?
god yes..

12.) Did you move anywhere?
No

13.) What sporting events did you go to?
i didnt go to any

14.) What concerts did you go to?
none

15.) Are you registered to vote?
Yep.

16.) If so, did you do your patriotic duty on Nov. 7?
nope

17.) Where do you live now?
in my house on leafwood

18.) Describe your birthday.
san diego..not really fun

19.) What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2006?
give jeremy some "special" treatment. or dye my hair blond..

20.) What is one thing you regretted this year?
dying my hair blond

21.) What's something you learned about yourself?
i have gas often and i whine a lot.

22.) Any new additions to your family?
no

23.) What was your best month?
june

24.) What from pop culture will you remember 2006 by?
britney spears crotch

25.) How would you rate this year with a scale from 1 (shitty) to 10 (excellent)?
a 4

26.) Did you keep your New Yar's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i dont really do them, i say i do, but i dont im talking major shit

27.) Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

28.) What countries did you visit?
none

29.) What would you like to have had in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
better grades, better friends

30.) What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
the day jeremy left. august 20...something..ahah! guess i dont have that etched.

31.) What was your biggest achievement of the year?
nothing

32.) What was your biggest failure?
nothing really

33.) Did you suffer illness or injury?
no

34.) What were the best things you bought?
my hoop earrings

35.) Where did most of your money go?
clothes and alcohol.

36.) What did you get really, really, really excited about?
vegas

37.) Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter
iii. richer or poorer? richer..hmmm..interesting

38.) What do you wish you'd done more of?
yell at more people

39.) What do you wish you'd done less of?
eat

40.) How will you be spending Christmas?
i already had it. it sucked ass

41.) Did you fall in love in 2006?
no, in 2004 i fell in love

42.) How many one-night stands?
none

43.) What was your favorite TV program?
ugly betty and the bad girls club

44.) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
this customer from mcdonalds...she totally ruined my day, today. fat bitchm oh wait she works at mcdonalds for a living, hahaha!

45.) What was the best book you read?
none

46.) What did you want and get?
an ipod and digital camera

47.) What did you want and not get?
sex

48.) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
went out to dinner and i turned 23

49.) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
sex/jeremy coming home early. no customers bitching to me about not getting a fucking free drink.

50.) What kept you sane?
alcohol

51.) What political issue stirred you the most?
the war in iraq..haha

52.) Who did you miss?
gee, i wonder

53.) Who was the best new person you met?
scott northup! you are the bomb diggity!

54.) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
i am not afraid to hold things back people, so if you want the honest truth. i will give it to you! please ask!


1. When is the last time you held hands with someone?
probably in aug.

2. What should you be doing right now?
honestly i want to be sleeping

3. Have you ever crawled through a window?
no

4. Where is your mom?
upstairs

5. Morning or night person?
neither

6. What was the last movie you watched?
clueless

7. Do you have a crush on anyone right now?
no
8. Any cool scars?
no

9. Things about the opposite sex you notice first:
if they are fat or skinny

10. What do you do when no one is watching?
scratch my ass

11. Ever been in love?
Yes

12. What's something your friends make fun of you for?
they say im weird....i think they are wrong about something there..

13. What is your curfew?
huh?!

14. Would you ever dye your hair red?
ya know, ive been thinking about that lately, or going dark again. gonna stay blond a while..i need fake tits though

15. You + alcohol?
oh im doing that right now

16. What's your worst personality flaw?
im slower than others..so i dont talk at first, but once you get me going, im gone and i let loose..yes?

17. What career would you wish to be in?
to take over the world really

18. Which country would you like to visit?
scotland/italy

19. Do you want a well paying job or a job you enjoy?
a well paying job

20. Do you wish to have the same best friends when you're older?
some of them i guess

21. Do you believe in needing a religion?
no

23. When were you last on the phone?
About an hour ago with my hermano

24. What were the shoes you wore today?
work shoes

25. Do you like math?
HELL NO!

26. What about history?
HELLLLLLL YES!

27. Have you ever seen 5 squirrels at one time?
what? no

28. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
No.

29. Do you have a brother?
yes

31. Who's your favorite person to talk to online?
jeremy

32. Have you ever used photobucket?
Yea

33. Do you like hugs?
depends on if i need them or not and who from..

34. Do you like cuddling?
Yeah, sure

35. Do you want to be a doctor?
uh, sure, let me give you a checkup! take off your clothes now biatch~!!!

36. Have you ever fallen asleep with gum in your mouth?
haha yes..

37. What do you do right before you go to bed?
pee or brush my teeth

38. Right when you get out of bed what do you do?
pee

39. Do you love your parents?
right now? just my mom...my dad is being a bit of abitch!

40. Would you date a girl/guy with hair shorter than yours?
ummm...a guy with hair shorter than mine yes..

41. Do you want to be famous?
yes

42. Do you spend a lot of time contemplating life's unanswerables?
yes

43. Do you do your own laundry?
yea






TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now? Yeah
2. are you happy?not really
3. are you talking to/liking/dating anyone right now? loving/with someone, yes!
4. are you bored? yes
5. are you German? No
6. are you Irish? no
8. are you Italian? yes
9. are your parents stilll married? yes and its making me misrable!
10. do you like someone right now? love someone, yes..

TEN FAVORITES.
1. store: target
2. weather: yeah i dont really care as long as it isnt windy
3. color: blue
4. sport: rugby
5. mall: yeah, no
6. music: metal and rock
7. food: anything with cheese
8. season: spring
9. animal: cheetah
10. place: my bed

TEN FACTS
1. hometown: crap-ieta
2. hair color: light brown
3. freckles: yep
4. hair style: straight, midlength, blond blah
5. eye color: blue
6. best friend: jeremy
7. mood: mad, tired
8. height: tall
9. lefty/righy: Righty.
10. song you're listening to: im not

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love? Yes.
2. do you believe in love? Yes.
3. have you ever been heartbroken? Yes.
4. have you ever broken someone's heart? Nope
5. have you ever fallen for one of your best friends? yea..and now hes gay
6. have you ever liked someone but never told them? Yes
7. are you afraid of commitment? No
8. Who are you dating? jeremy
9. someone ever kissed your hand? Yeah
10. have you ever had a secret admirer? no

so i got really drunk on saturday. it was very good times.

hey and to you people that dont return your messages that i may leave you, thanks i guess. either say yes or no. be at least somewhat mature if you dont want to hang out with me. at least i call to tell you if i cant do something. JESUS! im 23 years old...and im still dealing with this high school bullshit. its funny, cause everyother post of mine, has to do with this...

i guess i have to do it too huh!

haha, sure will!

school is fun....nice people in my classes...so far

im tired. i heard the santa anas are coming. im not happy about that. should start bringing some kleenex now.

he will be graduating this week. i wonder if he looks different or acts different..??
ive been driving jeremys truck around, its a fun truck. school is going pretty well. im being promoted to shift on sept 22nd. and will be going to a new store. yay! hopefully nothing will change about the store i will be going to. and i will be applying to graduate for the summer...hopefully everything will go well to were i can graduate 07! please oh please!
well off to escuela i go.
have a good weekend everyone!
oh and i want to go to alpine village for oktoberfest. who wants to go, terri? chelsea??

viva las vegas bitches!

p.s. i havent heard from jeremy in two days..im sad

so my birth control is making me super vomity! yes vomity!
all crazy naucious. i was gagging at work today..it was no good.
so i decided that since i will not get laid for 6-7 months, i will go off that shit. i hope it doesnt majorly fuck me over though.
thank you and goodbye

i love cottage cheese. yum

news:
i live in the ghetto.
jeremy has moved into my house.
goodbye

so today i worked out with katie. it wasnt even two minutes on the damn elliptical and we were both tired. we went through the full 25, did weights and shit after. i worked out on monday. i guess i just have to start alittle more at a time again. i feel good, so hopefully this will motivate me. its all about looking good for vegas. and at my dumbass gym i saw that asshole, i dont even remember his name. but i complained about him to the 24 hour fitness hotline. hes not even in shape, hes got a total gut and he works for a damn gym, i told katie, she agreed and said he seemed like a jerk. i cant wait for the one in murrieta! yay!
for more good news, im all done with summer school. i think fall semester starts last week of august. so i got enough time to chill. hope im fit for those stairs.
peace out everyone, have a good weekend!

theres always that one thing in someones life that you can never get rid of. that fucks everything up! will it change. im not sure, but i cant wait until this month is over already

so i got two shirts, shorts and some black undies, oh lala, for real cheap at target. we went to old navy, then to target. old navy is crap. dont go there! target was better. ive had a headache from wednesday evening. i think thursday it was a definate migraine. i threw up at work which was alittle embarrassing, never done that in front of people. was sent home, lucky me. i have to see my doctor, cause everytime before my rag starts, i get BAD migraines. i want someone to shoot my head off! but today is MUCH better. im afraid to smoke, ill give it a while. me and jeremy gonna hang out till monday. sunday drink with my bitches and monday or wednesday hang out with my fefe. i miss her so much!
oh! another reason why today was the shit! i got a pen! for free. from my school it writes so good, i love those pens. i was turning in my tuition and i complemented her and she said that the pens were for the students and that i could have however many that i wanted. i didnt want to be greedy so i had one. GO SAN MARCOS! man its hot! peace out. happy 4th everyone!

well my dog has finally had it. she has something wrong with her blood and has been getting a blood transfusion. had a bad reaction to the medicine she was getting for her arthritis. now she has be monitored at another vet and if she makes it out ok she will get steroids. but even the steroids could cause blood clots. i really need her this year. shes been there for me whenever ive needed her. the most well-behaved dog ever who thinks she is human. i will never have anything like this ever again and i dont want to.

yeah so my brother just ran upstairs, and i was wondering why...then he came down with the plunger, ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! and i already have a semi-hangover. drank my 6-pack of newcastle...im a champ! i need an award!
anyways, so on this day in 2004 was the first date me and jeremy had....(2 years we've been together) let me replay the date, sort of funny:
was supposed to meet him at the mall in carlsbad and i called him to see where to turn next cause he was already there. and when we were on the phone together he said he saw my truck turn the wrong way...(so i at that point i thought i had ruined everything, great this guy knows im a dumbass already).
so we meet, and he looked skinnier in person, wasnt very impressed with the looks, he was cute, but whatever..
then i went in his truck and was impressed by that. we went to the olive garden. and my stomach was really upset. i had nerves and of course gas! so i wasnt all that talkative, cause when the gas came, i just wanted to leave! so we order, and i got eggplant parmagean, it sucked, didnt it that much. jeremy was talking about everything! i cant remember though. we agreed that he did most of the talking.
then we hung out in his truck and smoked. i use to smoke back then if you remember...hehe.
then he dropped me off at my truck at the mall, i hugged him and that was it.
his interpretation of him: he thought i was really tall...and that i didnt like him, wasnt interested cause i was really quiet the whole date. and i didnt kiss him the first date, that made him feel bad! hah!
well the next day. i keep im'ing him saying we should hang out again. and he kinda ignored me for the first twenty times....then he said come out today and lets go to the beach. (i was really bored and wanted a re-do). so we went to carlsbad again. and we walked on the beach, talked, whatever..and i really liked him. i was all giddy...and i knew when he took off his shirt and he was wearing a wife beater that this guy was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay cute! i cant remember what we did, but i knew i wanted to see his apartment,not a slut!, and he said he gave really good massages...and he did (we didnt have sex or anything...) and then we left so he could drop me off at my truck again. and he asked if he could kiss me and i thought that was sweet. (i called my friend ceci to give her the updates...)
so yea, me and jeremy....thats the story from what i can remember

its the largest in so cal! yeah so im leaving early, like 7am! cause the line last year sucked ass!
heres the address:
1101 W. McKinley Ave
Pomona, Ca

and bring loads of money too!
its the 27 and 28. im going saturday. hope to see some of ya there!

ok. im alittle mad that hollywood is yet again, profiting off of something like this..why must they make a movie about something that is completely different then the damn titanic? its a disaster that we are still fighting about and they had to make a movie about it...why? what purpose will it serve. i think that documentaries and the week or month long news it showed over and over damn planes hitting the building, then going to the fucking pentagon. it plays over and over in my mind. i will never forget because of fox, cnn, and all the other news channels that played it over and over and over..and i can go on with this people, ya get the hint. and then wait a while, hollywood needs nick cage to play a cop..he needs a job!, then they come out with a movie what a suprise! im sorry my friends, but if you see this movie, you suck! you really do..im so numb to this shit, i dont know how any type of violence will affect me the way it did when i was even a teenager! how american huh..
ill just be sad if you see this movie, too bad for you..wasting your money on something we were able to see in real life in a repetitive fashion.
you know! the families are totally against this movie too, so go for it..the memory of cops in new york will now be represented by someone who makes how much? (nick cage) i just cant believe it..
i really am starting to hate this country, yes hate...maybe not the country, but the people that are in it right now.
oh well i could go on...but i wont, cause you all probably arent even reading this, so bye

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you (kilt_sponge). In the end you need to choose the people to be tagged and list their names. No tag back

i have a blankie with a bunnie on it, i cant live without it

i have ibs, which means i poo constantly without notice

i scratch my head when im nervous.

i cant stand hard boiled eggs or fish!

i eat food even when im not hungry.

i have really bad road rage.

i dont wear socks to bed at all!

i have to sleep with a sheet over me, or something on me...

my boyfriend watches spongebob and i pretend to like it with him.

i think that's enough. i'm going to tag beautifulcynic and chels1126 and laughsngiggles

http://www.rickross.com/groups/westboro.html

im really mad right now! dont know how to put this into words. typically baptist fucker who needs to die! yeah take a look at this "Christian" who is defaming all other christians and using free speech inproperly! he and these baptists dont know the meaning of free speech and should die and burn in hell!